“I go to the bathroom between every patient, wiping obsessively. I’m in a frenzy, wanting so bad to see white on the toilet paper. My eyes work to convince me the red is nonexistent as my heart tries to convince my brain everything will be fine.
Why am I not nauseous yet? I was nauseous from the beginning with my other pregnancy. That’s OK, some women don’t get sick right away.
I had always wanted to be lucky enough to escape the nausea … until I was. Until now”